I have not done a Confessions post in forever! This was one of my most requested post ideas yesterday from you guys besides A day in my life which I will work on! Ya’ll sent me hundreds of ideas so thank you!! I saved them all and will work on adding them in my regular rotation. Here are my confessions!
Lately I feel like I am having a hard time juggling it at all. My work, my kids and trying to have a social life and date on top of that, it is all pretty exhausting. Also as single parent it is really hard because you have zero help at home. I am thankful I have a busy and full life but I sometimes wonder how other people do it all and stay sane.
On that note I have major mom guilt when I have to leave my kids with a sitter. Even though logically I know they are with me the majority of the time and I deserve a break and it is good for them to see me have and build a life outside of them. I still always feel guilty.
Along with that my anxiety has been bad lately. I think when the future is unknown and mine feels unknown right now it drives my anxiety into overdrive.
I am struggling to discipline Sterling. He is so sassy and talks back often. No punishments seem to faze him. This is a trying age for me with him.
I am so excited about my cookbook but for the life of me I can’t sit down and focus on organizing the recipes. I have already paid a graphic designer to assemble it and make it look pretty so I need to get on it. I just feel like there is never anytime.
I am completely addicted to my hair extensions. I will probably never not have them -haha. As a girl with naturally thin hair it is so nice to have some thickness to it now. I know several of you asked for a post on the extensions so I will gladly do that.
I have a love hate relationship with my job. I love it because it allows me to work and take care of my kids and be creative and write about things that inspire me but I also feel the social media side of it can be draining sometimes. It can be hard not to compare your life to others. I have found for me focusing on gratitude and being thankful for what I do have helps!
Dating with kids is HARD. I know you guys want a post on dating and I am thinking about it because man I have some funny stories. I took a few months to focus on myself and have just been starting to date again. That being said I am so glad I am dating with kids because I have zero pressure to rush things. I know what I want and need in a partner and won’t settle. I have also learned to be brutally honest with people, no need to string someone along at this age.
I keep trying to meditate on a regular basis and just can’t. Probably because my mind hates to be still so I always put it off. But I really want to get in the habit of meditating everyday for at least 10 minutes. I think meditating is really good for people with anxious minds like myself. I actually did it last night right before bed and slept like rock. I think it helps clear my mind at night.
I have been seeing a therapist for a year now. I go every week and it has helped me so much dealing with my marriage ending and moving forward and being proud of who I am. I also have a bad tendency to blame myself for everything and harbor lots of self guilt so we are working hard on those issues. Matt and I went to couple’s therapy for a long time so I am no stranger to therapy but I have to say going solo and focusing on me has been so amazing. It is always nice to have someone listen and give you advice outside your family and friends. Never have any shame about working on and improving yourself!
Over the weekend I binge watched Working Moms and Friends from College on Netflix both are hilarious and so good.
I am pretty sure I will never have the body I want because of my love for wine- haha. I eat really clean most the time and pretty sure wine is the answer to losing my last 5 pounds:)
For months I have been trying to decide if we are going to sell our house and move or add on to it. I love my neighborhood and neighbors so much so I am torn about moving plus everything is so expensive here! It feels like such a huge life decision so I am keep stalling, but we met with a contractor last week and I think are moving towards an addition.
I am obsessed with Rock and Roll Tees- is it a mid life crisis trying to be hip and young- haha? Sterling told me yesterday he missed me in pretty blouses and dresses:)
Both of my kids love shark movies and scary movies. Like the creepiest movie preview will come on and they both will say they want to see it. I am like does this make my kid’s weird that they like scary stuff and shark attacks? On the other hand I hate those kind of movies!
I despise homework. Why is 3rd grade math so hard? They teach the kids how to do math such a backwards way now, nothing like how I learned to do it. Half of the time I just want to pull out my calculator and call it a day.
The kids are dying for a dog and while I would love a dog too I am just not sure I can handle the responsibility of a dog right now. I am on the go often and feel like it would be so hard to take care of a dog too.
I want to love intermittent fasting and I truly think it has great health benefits and curbs your appetite but man sometimes I just want to eat breakfast!!
That is all I have for today. Maybe I will make Confessions a regular series again!